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Stuck With A Toxic/Abusive Partner? We’re here for you.

I feel like I'm losing my mind.

I posted about this before but I really need to vent so here I am again. I'm stuck in an awful marriage and I don't know how to get out. My situation is extremely rare (I think). I'm not a U.S. citizen or greencard holder yet. I've already submitted the paperwork.

My husband is mentally and verbally abusive. He's also an habitual liar. He has been living a whole other life behind my back and he has been lying to me for 4 years we've been together. I can't leave because we have a baby together and if I leave, I'll be without status. I left my home country as a baby so I don't have family there or know anything about living isn't that country since I was little. It's a foreign land to me. But my mental health is shot and I feel like I'm losing my mind staying with this man. He has over 100k in debt that I'm just finding out. He bought two vehicles behind my back. Both are repoed now. Credit cards maxed out. He applied for insurance under my name and social the other day and didn't tell me about it. Till I'm seeing a bill came in the mail for me. This is insane. My pastor is telling me that God doesn't like divorce etc and I would be sinning against God if I walked away. My son would also be another black kid being added to the statistic of being raised in a broken home. I hate myself so much for marrying this idiot.