Struggling so bad… just need to vent

I’m currently 22w and have been waiting 2 weeks just to make a specialist appointment to check on my baby girl for she has a hole in her heart. I’ve called and bugged so many times and no one is getting anything done. I just want to know my baby’s health and quality of life. My SO is currently in the ER second time this week and they may send him home again with just bandaid fixes and no help. I’m nervous for his health I just want him to be able to be independent, work, and pick up our baby when she comes. (Ik that’s all he wants too and ic not only the physical pain but the mental load he has rn) his boss is also threatening to fire him. Our relationship has been on the rocks recently. We have been struggling both mentally and physically just trying to survive. My school bills have been piling up. I haven’t had work for three month and just started a part time job. I have car bills as well stacking up as well. I have three months left and we are trying to get the place cleaner as well as get the necessities. My parents have been a big help, mostly my mother keeping me positive and helping me through things. However they don’t know about my SO health, work, or our relationship struggles. They see me and just show me looks of pitty everytime already. They have tried to get me to move home on multiple occasions, as they don’t approve of my SO, his paycheck amounts , or the apartment we can afford . As well as my father asking my plans on birth control in the future. I’ve struggled sitting boundaries with them. I just feel so scared. I had to get off all my medicine for my mental illness. I’ve struggled with feelings and being okay mentally. Honestly just want to enjoy this pregnancy even tho it’s been such a struggle. I feel selfish for being upset about everything taking focus off of this time. I am at a loss and feel like a failure and disappointment. I’m just a scared girl in her early 20s. I am loosing my drive and will to keep going. My heart is breaking cuz honestly fuck all the bills and crossed boundaries. I have a flimsy support system and fear the worst for the family I built… I hope for the best but am fearful of my SO future and our daughter’s future. It’s a struggle to feel calm enough to eat or drink water at some points.