I agree with Sadie. I've gone through the same thing it is hard to open up but the therapist needs to know what's going on in order to help you. I know for my first appointment I wrote out the top 5 things I needed to deal with sooner rather than later and started with that.
One thing that sticks out from what you said is being able to communicate your feelings. You will be able to practice that with your therapist. I used to hold a lot of stuff back with certain ppl but with my partner I can do that. Good luck, you will start to feel better soon keep at it
When I'm feeling like this, I make a list to get these worries out of my brain. Paper and pen. 🌟 Write down what you WOULD LIKE TO tell your therapist - doesn't mean you HAVE to. Sometimes having a list for me releases the anxiety of meeting someone new and what to say. Glad youre taking care of yourself and reaching out- your on the right track. Can only go up from here 🩷
Best thing I can say is be honest. Don’t sugar coat anything (it’s kind of hard not to bc it feels like airing out dirty laundry to a stranger) but it’s literally their job lol. I went through a similar situation with my ex & now I finally have the confidence & mental strength to leave 🥳 should be signing a lease on a new apartment for my son & I next week 🙌🏾