Struggling and emotional

I had my baby two days ago and tonight is our first night at home.

I’m currently sat crying my eyes out just staring at him in the next to me crib as I’m too scared to go to sleep.

He’s swaddled and I just feel I cannot see him breathing because we only have the groegg light on. I’m sat with my iPhone torch where I can ensure I can just see his little body moving.

My husband snores like a train anyway so there’s zero chance of me sleeping anyway.

I’m so emotional and overwhelmed I just don’t know what to do at all. I’m absolutely terrified of trying to sleep 😭😭

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You can do it mamma

I hope you’re doing okay and just know you aren’t alone. I can’t even begin to imagine how it feels at only 2 days old. I stayed in hospital for 11 days and rang the buzzer almost every few hours because I was anxious. What I do know is it gets easier with time and slowly you’ll be able to relax a little more. X

It’s so normal babe your hormones are also all over the place, day three most people are a mess as their milk comes in! If you still feel this way we bought an owlet sock that sets off an alarm if anything goes wrong and that really did give me peace of mind with my firstborn! I swear it gets easier over time just follow all the safe sleep stuff and he’ll be fine!

I've heard days 2-4 are mega hard! Emotionally, hormonally, the lot! You can do it!

Girl. Been there. Done that. It will get better! Please try and rest. You really need it too! Honestly no one prepares you for what that feels like. The exhaustion and feelings and recovering are a lot

I second the owlet sock. From one anxious mom to the next

Put another light on if you need! And use your hand if it makes you feel better to check on him. He will be just fine! It’s a scary night but once you are through it it’s much better.
Wake your husband up and get him to do a shift watching so you can get some sleep, you’ll need it. Good luck xx

It’s the hormones. Cry it out and stay awake if you need to it’s fine and normal. It does get better ❤️

I got the owlet and it has helped to give me peace of mind. Also experienced this the first few days when we got home

That's totally normal mama. Hormones are wild and made to keep baby safe. Cry it out and try to make breathing exercises to relax a little after.

This is so normal!
I used to set my timer for every 10mins
You’ll get to the point where you just crash but honestly this is totally normal
Congratulations! You’ve got this!

This is so normal and (you may not want to hear it) but may last for a while (months in my case)
I used a Snuza Hero for months and it did reassure me a little and used a lamp on other side of bedroom for a little more light but not too much x

Congratulations on your little newborn 💙 the first few days after birth are so emotional, it's so normal to feel teary all the time, your body has been through a major hormone drop, just give it time.
I used a night light in the bedroom for about 4 months so I could see my son, so I totally understand the anxiety that you feel, totally normal too. You're little one will be absolutely fine, this is the reason why they sleep in the same room as us, your breathing and heart rate will regulate his and he'll sense you're close by.
It gets much easier 🤍

I was the exact same the first week! I don't think i slept for 5 days straight and always checked his breathing. It does get better, babies are more resilient than you think. Sending you hugs xx

I was like this for the first month, i mighr have dosed off for 2 or 3 hours every night until i was a walking zombie. I used to put my finger just under my sons nose and feel his breath. I didn't have a clue what to do when we got home until I knew what cry meant what and then we got into a routine of when he wants to be fed and when to change his nappy or when he just needs to be close to me. It gets easier I promise

I was the same way!!! It’s the hormones!! Try getting the owlet sock or something similar, my cousin gave me something like this, I found one like it on Amazon

https://a.co/d/a7NK9QN

Girl that first few days is so rough, I do not envy you but you can do this!! You WILL start to feel calmer as the days go on, your hormones are designed to keep you on high alert at this early stage - it’s a shitty primal thing. But you are doing your best, you’re a good mum, things will calm down and it’s very very normal to feel this way. I promise you it gets easier and better xxxx

Oh I feel your pain, I remember them days, I would find myself taking a minute in the garden sobbing and silently screaming. I dreaded the nights I called if nightime depression. You are only two days in, I can assure as clique as it sounds it gets better. Your body and mind is adjusting and that takes a while, you instincts to protect your baby and make sure he is breathing is taking over and this is normal. My advice would be that I didn't take is sleep in the day when you can. If I could go back in time I know this would have helped me massively. Just trust the process everything will be fine I promise you. As for partner snoring ys I was in the same boat, he ended up staying in the other room or the sofa because it just wasn't working. Don't be afraid to message me on here if be more than happy to message you day or night if your feeling it hard. Xxx

Thanks everyone for your comments ❤️❤️

It means a lot to have reassurance from you all xxxx

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