I’ve been there with my first born I had a huge over supply of milk and she was born a preemie so she was eating very little I was constantly getting clogged and was in a lot of of pain to the point I just stopped trying to breastfeed and put her on formula. I felt horrible and pretty much cried every time i made her a bottle. But what helped me with it was talking to my sister who also struggled with her milk supply.
You're doing fantastic! It's okay to feel guilty but know plans change and that's okay too! Im currently struggling with my babies' latch, and its been painful so far. Every day I debate giving up and exclusively pumping instead.
You’re doing amazing! I had a very similar experience I felt like I failed my baby when I started EP instead of EBF but it was taking such a toll on my mental health. He wasn’t matching well or getting enough food and instead of us bonding it was very frustrating for both of us and he would just scream. Now that I just pump I know he’s getting plenty to eat and he’s so much happier! Don’t ever feel guilty for taking care of your mental health, a healthy mom is so much more important than how the babies get their food. She’s still getting all the benefits of breast milk with a less stressed mom? Sounds like a win to me. And as far as baby bonding I realized that I can snuggle up with him with a bottle, or a contact nap or tummy time etc. we are bonding plenty without BF at all. And I know as he grows he’s going to remember that his mom was there for every graduation, event, play, sports game etc he’s not going to remember how he was fed as a baby. You’re doing amazing girl!
You’re not alone at all! My baby boy is right around 3 weeks old now. The latching process has been so challenging and painful for me, and that’s even after working with a lactation consultant on a weekly basis! I tell myself almost every day how easy it would just be to switch to formula entirely but I want to keep putting in the effort to making breastfeeding work over just pumping since the cleaning/prep process would become so much simpler! You’re doing great just by pumping though!
Your doing better then me! I have breast feed my baby for about a week but u just recently gave it up because it was taking a toll on my mental health and I just felt as it was best in my self and for her to switch over! I feel so guilty but you got to take care of yourself too!