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Feeling like the worst mom ever

I have two boys who have a rare genetic mutation that causes them to be delayed and have a heart condition. Anyways we were enjoying the pool the other day , my boys love the water and it’s one of the norm things they can really enjoy . Both me and dad were in the pool with them my youngest being 13 months was in his floaty which I thought was safe . And I was talking to dad when I realized my yougest drifted off and as I noticed this I start to go get him and in that moment he went to dunk his head in the water which his floaty made him flip over . Scariest moment of my life , I was able to swim and get him and thankfully he’s ok . But now I’m just reliving this over in my head feeling so guilty I didn’t keep him at my arms length . I’ve done a lot of research and he will never go in this floaty again . And I’ve ordered safest ones . But has anyone dealt with a traumatic situation?