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Mental Health for Moms

Is this an insane idea/not appropriate to do? ⬇️

When I was a kid I lived in an apartment with my dad part time, parents were divorced. There's all kinds of messy drama involved in my childhood- when I was 12 my dad passed away in that apartment. Because of the aforementioned messy drama as a child I really didn't heal/have closure. I have maybe a slight obsession with connections to my dad. As a child I had behavior/rage in the grief and destroyed a lot of his personal items given to me. And my mother didn't really guide me in taking things I might want as as an adult when we went to his apartment after to clean out. Anyway - the apartment is still there. I am in the neighborhood often but never have time so it's always this afterthought. Today I happened to be walking around that neighborhood and I got the closest to the building I have in 15 years and I wanted so desperately to go inside. I lingered around(creepy I know) and I thought about movies and shit where the person knocks on the door and says they used to live there. But- it feels invasive, inappropriate, insane. I don't know if children live there but I have a child now and I know if someone did that to me I would feel very threatened/not okay...... What do we think? 🫤