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First time mums

Just need to vent

I think my husband and I are very much diving off a cliff toward divorce.

We’re both exhausted and that’s not helping.

Our daughter is 19 months old and for the last 5 weeks she’s refusing to sleep longer than a few hours in her cot. She wakes up sometimes after 2 hours, sometimes after 5 hours, it’s never consistent, and she then refuses to go back down in her cot. She has to be asleep on someone. It started with her having to sleep on me and hated her dad, then it moved to sleeping on either one of us, and it’s stayed that way ever since.

We’re both not only getting little sleep but we’ve been passing tonsillitis back and for to each other for months now even without being near each other.

We don’t kiss anymore or hold hands, we don’t say I love you very much or show that we do, we don’t do anything intimate… we just co exist in the same house.

I don’t know if it’s because of the constant illnesses or this sleep issue we’re having, but I don’t think we’re going to last much longer. We’re constantly snapping at each other and swearing at each other.

We don’t have time to ourselves because we don’t have a village or anyone available to babysit for us so we can’t get back on track that way.

I just feel like we had a child and everything went wrong.

We’ve only been married 2 and a half years and it’s already falling apart. I’m so disappointed but I’m also so fed up of being spoken to like absolute shit on a daily basis.

I don’t know what I want from this post. I just needed to vent and get it out because I have no friends and nobody to talk to about this stuff.