Intimacy

I need some advice feedback or anything tbh. My husband and I haven’t been intimate in over a month. He says he doesn’t want anyone else and is still attracted to me but prefers to masturbate. We had a rough past year where I would be overstimulated and yell. He tells me this caused him to not want to be intimate with me. He tells me we’ll get past this because he’s still working through his trauma and resentment. But I can’t help but feel lost unwanted and ugly. It kinda makes me want to cheat on him but I am a Christian woman and I fear God above anyone. I truly do feel like he’s not attracted to me anymore and it just makes me want to cry.