Post partum weight gain 😭
I’m really struggling at the minute with accepting my body. I’m 9 months post partum.
Pre pregnancy I was a size 14-16 (I have PCOS and always struggled with my weight but I was feeling ok about myself pre pregnancy) I then lost a lot more weight in my first and second trimester due to HG and was the smallest I’d been in years whilst pregnant which felt amazing actually.
In my third trimester I put the weight back on and then some, as I could eat more food, I’m now a size 20 😭.
I’ve continued to put weight on post birth as I had a huge haemorrhage and post partum pre eclampsia which has taken many many months to recover from. I definitely found comfort in eating after the sickness left, and I was obviously sitting around a lot too with baby and not exercising much.
It’s caught up with me. In all honestly I hate myself, I feel disgusted with myself I can’t even look in the mirror.
I’ve been trying to eat better (hit and miss), I’m hitting the gym consistently, started personal training. I’m so much stronger and feel more toned but the weight won’t really shift. I’m still wearing size 20 jeans and have such huge hips.
I’m actually considering a weight loss jab or something similar, but I’m terrified of side effects which I’ve witnessed in family members like kidney problems, and I can’t afford to have any further health issues. I’ve only just felt better after my major haemorrhage 9 months post partum.
I know this probably isn’t a unique experience, and if it were a friend or family member I’d tell them to be kind and patient with themselves and say this body grew a perfect baby.
But I don’t know what to do anymore, I need change I want to feel myself again.
If anybody has any advice, shared experiences, anything that’s helped, I’d be so so grateful…
- a sad mama 😞 x
