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By Grace, Through Motherhood

Prayer

I keep getting so frustrated inside and overwhelmed with emotion because of being a single mom. My mind feels bogged down by the amount of work I feel like I have to do. Even though my kids fathers help. It’s just when im home with the kids and there’s so much to do. I just look around and get so overwhelmed. It feels like non stop. Then I want a break. Not from my kids but just from life. Like dang. Why it’s so much to do damn. I’m behind in some bills. I moved in this place and it is a blessing. Yet im just so disappointed that I have no man no family and not even a friend that feels like home. Im the go to person for so many. Im also pissed at myself because I did so well not having sex for a whole. Then at the beginning of the year I did with the youngest 2 dad and it’s like he tries to talk to me now more. Literally afterwards I reminded him we hadn’t touched each other in almost 4 years after his cheating and my growth that we weren’t ever supposed to do that and im not interested in being with him. We both have different values and desires. Mind you this happened because I was waiting (basically homeless) while section 8 approved a new place. Then after about a month in a half this man I’ve been liking , talking to for about 2 years and honestly talked about marriage and everything. We share the same values and all. I was praying it could be it. But guess who acted all defensive when I said like you know I don’t want to unintentionally attach myself to someone if they aren’t interested in being serious.
Anyways that’s not all.
My biological mom practically stopped talking to me AGAIN after Mother’s Day. I’m tired of her coming in and out of my life. That’s a whole other thing.


Please just pray for me if you know the Lord and are serious about your faith. I’m honestly not looking for advice. Or anything like that cause I don’t even know if my heart will receive. I beat myself up and have days where I cheer myself up. I’m also on my monthly so I may just be feeling too deeply. And I don’t even want to share all of this with anyone I talk to. Cause no one ever hears me really spill. My therapist helps me but it’s been every 3 weeks lately with her summer schedule.

Thanks anyways. Blessings