Grieving my old life

Big hugs. What you are feeling is 100% normal. Loving your baby fiercely and grieving your old freedom can exist in the exact same space. It doesn’t make you a bad mum; it makes you human.
It’s incredibly tough when it feels like your world has completely flipped while your partner's keeps its old shape.
At 5 months old, you are right in the thick of it. But I promise, it does get easier as they grow. You will be able to have a much more solid, predictable schedule soon, and those evening game sessions will come back.
Two quick tips for now:

- Tag-Team: Next time you go to the card shop, plan to swap halfway through so you both get a turn to play.
- Schedule Your Turn: Talk to your husband openly. If he stays to finish a game, you deserve a scheduled, guilt-free block of time later in the week where he takes solo charge and you get to recharge.

Hang in there. This is just a hard season, not your forever! You've got this.

Your feelings are valid! You can always replan a digital game at home with you and hubby to prep something quick and cozy to set the mood, and when baby is sleeping play a few games. 💕 don’t beat yourself up! life changes, we are allowed to fully feel as we adapt. ❤️‍🩹

First of all, don’t beat yourself up. This is a real thing that every mother experiences and it is HARD. But I promise you that it DOES get easier. As your baby gets older things will get easier and you will get to enjoy things again. I remember 5 months being a really hard stage for me. I felt like I was never going to live for myself again and I was burnt out and desperately wanted to do things I used to. And sooner than you know it you’re going to get to enjoy doing those things WITH your little one. Right now, just make sure you find time for yourself. It’s CRUCIAL. Hand baby off to dad and go do something you enjoy doing for an hour or two. It will get better I promise❤️