So f*cking stressed
This week has just been an absolute shitshow. I had a doctors appointment because I’m worried about my health (headaches daily, migraines weekly, unexplained muscle strains and pains and I’m bruising extremely frequently without any injury) and the doctor giggled throughout my whole appointment and said she doesn’t think anything is wrong but they’ll test my bloods in a months time!! I was literally in tears when she poked at my ribs to assess the pain I have in them, I told her it’s interfering in my daily life, I don’t have the energy to workout anymore which I used to do daily, I’m wearing sunglasses inside for the headaches… how the hell can they just brush this off. And if all that isn’t bad enough UC closed my claim and haven’t paid me this month because I couldn’t get on my account to accept commitments from last month even though I called them in MARCH and explained that I wasn’t receiving their log in codes on my phone number so I can’t access my account. My partner had surgery on his leg in April and had to have a month off which has resulted in our pay being significantly cut so we were relying on this UC money. I asked them to refute the closure of the claim and I was basically told it was my fault because the commitments had been there for a month and it doesn’t matter that I told someone I couldn’t access my account.
It feels like everyone I speak to for help screws me over or just treats me like a joke and I’m so fed up of it. Doctors, GP receptionist, DWP employees, all of them I’ve ever spoke to have been nothing but rude. It took a lot for me to get the courage to go to the doctor after which a bad experience when I was pregnant with my boys and to just be giggled at the whole time and told nothings wrong when I know myself this is not how I should feel has just blown my top.
Just needed a big fat rant, fed up of some of this adulting crap 😂
Contractions...
I know that every body is different, but how do you know if you're having actual contractions ? Of course at some point I'll be like "oh yeah, baby's coming 100%", but I don't want to be ready to bear down while still at home.
I've felt low grade (2-4 pain) period cramps throughout the day, since yesterday. I do randomly get one that's worse (4-6 pain), but the lower grade ones are more common. Happens every now and again, maybe twice an hour. They have been along my lower belly and sometimes lower back.
I'm definitely dropped. Belly is soft along the top (feels weird 😅). Lightning crotch is starting and baby's head is applying some pressure. Midwife said I was 3cm on Thursday. However, no sign of my water breaking except a small dribble yesterday, and that really could have just been pee.
41+1... so just waiting. Could this be it ? 😮💨🙏
