Postpartum rage

1230am here- just had a meltdown and cried hysterically to my husband. My son who is now down to one feeding per night, woke up at 1120pm just as I was falling asleep. I tried my hardest to settle as I knew it wasn’t hunger. He got louder and I lost it. I came out storming to the kitchen to get a bottle (he only had .5 oz) and layed back down and just lost it. I’m exhausted, the balance of toddler and baby is insane, I haven’t had an hour to myself in months, I have no adult interaction all day, my husband works long hours, I have no one checking up on me. My rage is through the roof. The crying is getting to me this time around. It feels never ending and like the walls are closing in as the cries get louder. I need help. I need to escape and recharge. My husband no longer recognizes me, heck I don’t either. I keep it together in front of of the kids and let it out as soon as they’re backs are turned and then put a fake smile on. I love my children dearly but, I know I’m not ok. This is not joyful for me at this time. I need to know this will pass and I will be better for my children and my marriage.

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I was holding my baby with one arm and eating with the second one when he arched his back and thrown his head backwards. I quickly grabbed him but he started crying so bad and I’m not sure if it was the fork I thrown or his back but I heard a click. He settled down in a few minutes but I’m scared I hurt my baby.
He’s been awake over an hour when it happened, then I fed him and he fell asleep and he woke up after 10 minutes. He’s fussy and I’m not sure if it’s because he wants to sleep or he’s in pain. He’s with the dad now.
Please someone tell me it will be fine, I can’t stop crying 😭😭😭😭

Anyone get annoyed with their kids just for being kids?

My Kids are actually very good. But I still find myself constantly yelling and telling them to just go play….I feel guilty all the time and feel its a symptom of my mental heath issues. Any small kind advice on how to be less angry for no reason.

How do you feel about your partner going on holiday with boys

With 2 kids at home..

Expecting too much?

I'm on a babymoon (5 night cruise) with my fiance and I'm almost 20 weeks pregnant. I got a sunburn on the beach unfortunately and even before that I was noticing swelling in my ankles. I told him several times that I wanted to enjoy the cruise by eating to my heart's content and reading while watching the waves. I stay home due to health complications so he is the one paying for the expenses for this vacation, one I couldn't have without him and I am grateful but I'm SO tired! With the sunburn and my belly growing so much recently, my feet are swollen and incredibly painful to be on. I encourage him to do stuff by himself but he keeps expecting me to join him at the pool in the sun, activities he wants to do on the top deck, and walking around in 100 degree weather when I show signs of fainting when I'm out in the heat. I don't want to disappoint him so I've been pushing myself really hard - it has been hard to stand let alone walk, my ankles have been swollen and my feet so red that they look purple, my head has been hurting, my stomach cramping, and I'm just sick of it. We got in an argument because I didn't want to wear sunscreen for the first time this trip because I had horrible bumps/rash yesterday and I don't know what caused it and he said he's been trying to help me the whole trip. I don't understand and I'm upset - how can he be mad at me for forgoing sunscreen for a 10 minute swim in the shade (that we both agreed would be good for my cramping) when I've been miserable and vocal about my symptoms this whole trip? I feel crazy and he doesn't get how hard pregnancy is and how much I've done to make him happy. I'm exhausted. Am I crazy? Am I alone?

3 girls 1 boy

Okay so my husband and I had 3 girls then we finally had a boy. I am seeing a complete different side of him. Not bad but he's having way more input about our son then he did with our daughters like what he wears and watches etc like I said I'm not complaining it's just different lol

Opinions

Need opinions, I’m a sahm 22 with a 9m old, fiance 22 works full time 8-12 hr shifts for backstory he works m-f sometimes sat it’s been rare for Saturdays but I feel as though I’m losing interest in the relationship I’m not sure what it is or why he’s amazing he helps with baby on weekends that’s his “shift with baby” but idk what it is his bsf has been living with us for 3 weeks now certain stuffs been bothering me for ex. His friend taking my cigs (gross ik) but he hasn’t addressed him abt it as my fiance and man of the house I would’ve thought he would have said something, there was another issue that I feel as though he hasn’t properly defended me on people I’ve talked to abt it said he’s should’ve been kicked out due to him causing a disturbance but my fiance has that I can’t do that to him mentality which I love that he values others but idk ik we’re young and he has growing to do but I keep finding myself in a I want a man or for him to be like a man I have no clue where the shift even came from, I found myself talking to him saying I’m losing interest, we barley spend time together and if so we’re on our phones or doing the deed that there’s not much else he’s gotten us paint stuff from his parents so we can do that but it’s been sitting in his car I find myself asking him or reminding him to do certain things which also is slightly annoying it’s just idk I’d like some feedback good or bad (my grammar sucks) just needed thoughts and feedback