Expecting too much?
I'm on a babymoon (5 night cruise) with my fiance and I'm almost 20 weeks pregnant. I got a sunburn on the beach unfortunately and even before that I was noticing swelling in my ankles. I told him several times that I wanted to enjoy the cruise by eating to my heart's content and reading while watching the waves. I stay home due to health complications so he is the one paying for the expenses for this vacation, one I couldn't have without him and I am grateful but I'm SO tired! With the sunburn and my belly growing so much recently, my feet are swollen and incredibly painful to be on. I encourage him to do stuff by himself but he keeps expecting me to join him at the pool in the sun, activities he wants to do on the top deck, and walking around in 100 degree weather when I show signs of fainting when I'm out in the heat. I don't want to disappoint him so I've been pushing myself really hard - it has been hard to stand let alone walk, my ankles have been swollen and my feet so red that they look purple, my head has been hurting, my stomach cramping, and I'm just sick of it. We got in an argument because I didn't want to wear sunscreen for the first time this trip because I had horrible bumps/rash yesterday and I don't know what caused it and he said he's been trying to help me the whole trip. I don't understand and I'm upset - how can he be mad at me for forgoing sunscreen for a 10 minute swim in the shade (that we both agreed would be good for my cramping) when I've been miserable and vocal about my symptoms this whole trip? I feel crazy and he doesn't get how hard pregnancy is and how much I've done to make him happy. I'm exhausted. Am I crazy? Am I alone?
Opinions
Need opinions, Iām a sahm 22 with a 9m old, fiance 22 works full time 8-12 hr shifts for backstory he works m-f sometimes sat itās been rare for Saturdays but I feel as though Iām losing interest in the relationship Iām not sure what it is or why heās amazing he helps with baby on weekends thatās his āshift with babyā but idk what it is his bsf has been living with us for 3 weeks now certain stuffs been bothering me for ex. His friend taking my cigs (gross ik) but he hasnāt addressed him abt it as my fiance and man of the house I wouldāve thought he would have said something, there was another issue that I feel as though he hasnāt properly defended me on people Iāve talked to abt it said heās shouldāve been kicked out due to him causing a disturbance but my fiance has that I canāt do that to him mentality which I love that he values others but idk ik weāre young and he has growing to do but I keep finding myself in a I want a man or for him to be like a man I have no clue where the shift even came from, I found myself talking to him saying Iām losing interest, we barley spend time together and if so weāre on our phones or doing the deed that thereās not much else heās gotten us paint stuff from his parents so we can do that but itās been sitting in his car I find myself asking him or reminding him to do certain things which also is slightly annoying itās just idk Iād like some feedback good or bad (my grammar sucks) just needed thoughts and feedback