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April 2023 Babies 🇺🇸

Sometimes I just want to leave my family 😔

Today has been one of those days where I dont want to do it anymore. I don't want to be mom i don't want to be married. My 3 year old cries so much and his tantrums are getting very frustrating. I am just afraid I am the problem for not being around. I literally see my kids like 4hrs m-f and on the weekends it seems as if i am always doing something never really spending time with them.. i hate that I married a man who can't provide. I have to keep a horrible 9-6 job that I hate just so that we can pay bills and have health insurance. My husband has zero sense of urgency, he claims adhd and therefore he can't keep a job. I just don't want to do this anymore I just want to be away from this i want to be me. I can't handle this role. Is driving me insane. My son crying so much all day and I can't do anything to stop it like omgs how do i do this. I hate my job so much I hate everything about it except for pay the pay. I contemplated quiting my job this month but just seeing how my husband is it scared me. I feel like my son acts up because he needs my attention he needs me and I can't be here for him. Like omgs I hate this so much.