Life before pregnancy, drinking & smoking

Before getting pregnant I wasn't much of a drinker but did love to smoke pot. Its not that I've been craving either one. I guess I'm just curious if there are any mamas out there that miss there life before getting pregnant? Smoking all the time didnt really leave me with any healthy relationships or coping mechanisms now that I've stopped doing anything toxic for my body & the baby. I feel like ppl are turned off by me when I'm honest with my life before getting pregnant which is hard on me. Im not a judgemental person.