So basically I told my partner he wasn’t allowed to buy anything for baby until the 20 week scan when we find out the gender. We found out early at 17 weeks but I told him he still has to wait til the 20 week scan “for confirmation” but really it’s because I still don’t feel ready. It was a struggle convincing him to wait this long tbh but I’m high risk and have literally been having dreams of the worst happening. This is going to sound so horrible but from the start of this pregnancy I didn’t think it was meant to be. I’ve been having issues since 5 weeks pregnant which have mostly settled but not completely, I’m scared. We were trying for this baby and although it’s horrible to say it’s even more horrible to feel but I’ve just had such a bad feeling about this pregnancy since finding out like I don’t think baby’s gonna make it 😢 I’m 21 weeks tomorrow and have the 20 week scan when I’m 21+3 weeks. I don’t really wanna start getting stuff for baby yet I kinda want to wait til my 28 week growth scans start but he’s excited to start getting stuff in because this one’s a boy 😅 idk I just don’t feel ready