Chronic Pain Mamas

I ran out of Oxy for two weeks because of the holidays. I couldn’t get an appointment to see my Dr. so I purchased some CBD gummies with THC online to ease my pain and anxiety. My contract says I have to have acceptable urine drug tests every three months so a positive THC reading is considered breaking my contract. They will drop you if illegal drugs are in your system. I had an appointment today and knew I was getting tested. I’ve had so much anxiety about it for the past four days but I decided that I had to be honest and tell him. He said it’s fine! He’s all for it! I couldn’t believe it. I made an appointment to get my medical marijuana card on Monday. This will be such a game changer for my issues. Bipolar 1 (usually manic). Depression. ADHD. OCD. PTSD. Non acute chronic pain. Chronic insomnia. Severe anxiety.

I have been through the ringer this year as I’ve had brain surgery to remove a tumor and I had to have emergency surgery to have my stomach removed. I have been sick since I got COVID in October 2020, so it’s been almost two years now. I’ve lost a lot of friends since I got sick. Mostly because I used to be the socialite, the life of the party, and when I stopped planning activities, then people stopped coming and stopped reaching out, since I was always the one to reach out. My very best friend, who I thought I would grow old with, literally dumped me this summer and told me that she didn’t know how to be my friend or what I wanted from her anymore and she couldn’t do it anymore. I’ve been unable to work since last November but just started a crazy job but I’m working at home and I’m incredibly lonely, as I don’t talk to other people (besides my family). I used to be THE extrovert and have become an introvert because I had to, and now I want friends again. I don’t care where you live, what you have, but I just want some people in my life who can understand when I’m having a bad day and when the mom guilt comes. 😔

So my little one came Oct 18th and the experience was beyond anything I expected. I already have 1 child so I thought I knew what to expect but she had other plans. I wanted an epidural but found out mid labor I couldn't have one because I jave a spinal stimulator in my spine for my pain. No one thought to tell me that so I was caught completely off guard and terrified! So I had my first all natural birth lol After my son my body never recovered and that's when my pain started and after her I can def feel a shift in my body that doesn't feel temporary and not in a good way. It's difficult but I do it for my kiddos!

Hello! I’m a mama of two awesome boys but three if you count my husband 😆

In 2019 I had two surgeries which spun my body out of control. I am now diagnosed with Hypermobility Elhers Danlos Syndrome, Central Sensitization Syndrome, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, along with many others.

Sometimes my day to day is incredibly hard, especially when I’m in a flare. It is always nice to meet other mama’s who experience much of the same thing.

Just doing a check-in! I know with the colder nights starting to sneak in randomly my joints are starting to flare up. Hoping this baby will help keep me distracted during this winter lol