FTM mom.
I have a six month old who I absolutely adore. When my husband and I started trying, we did not think that we would get pregnant on the first try at all. Both myself and my husband have health issues so we genuinely thought that we are gonna be struggling. We did not expect to get up to bat and hit a home run on the first try.
With that being said in the same year that my child was born we moved cities where we didnβt have friends we bought a house. He got two promotions and is working like a dog.
I feel genuinely lost. I canβt establish a good group of friends here at all. Iβve tried Mom groups and the only women that show up are either grandmothers or nannies. I tried churches. Iβve tried workout classes, but making female friends as a mother is impossible.
When we got pregnant, we made the decision that I would stay home and end my corporate job because my corporate job the only way to move up was if we were to move us another city to the home office which we couldnβt do because we just moved from my husbandβs job.
I can feel the resentment creeping in. I feel like Iβve put everything in my life on hold for my husband and he is doing everything that he wanted in his life hasnβt drastically changed. Heβs still going to work having adult conversations making friends and Iβm at home with a baby maybe going out once a day having a very routine life. Frankly, iβm regretting saying yes to trying for a baby, but I love our kid. Itβs so complicated to say out loud and I feel guilty even admitting it.