Love and Sex after Baby

I am curious how vaginal penetration actually feels for most women. I have vaginismus, so I have no way of knowing, but I’ve heard that the only real pleasurable part for women is clitoral stimulation, and vaginal doesn’t particularly bring pleasure. I have heard different things.

I'm 6 weeks pp and I'm upset that my husbands not even tried to try it on lol Even if we could we can't as we've a baby that won't go down and 2 other kids but it's making me feel really insecure about myself

Soooooo I have a 10 month old and a 3 year old. I personally am not one of those moms that ever had a surge in their sex drive during or after pregnancy. However, I am trying to find that groove whenever I’m in the mood. While we do end up having sex and both climaxing, I feel like it’s teenage sex all over again but the awkward part of it 🤣 because I also am not in the mood to even kiss him, I just let him touch me to turn me on. Maybe even massages sometimes? But kissing hasn’t been an option because for whatever reason I don’t want to. I am attracted to my husband for sure but kissing is just not in my book yet and I’m working on it. Anyone else in this boat or similar? What I’m trying to ask is how to even spice it up a little because I’m internally laughing at the fact it’s just touch and sometimes it’s just him playing with me and we’re both in silence 🤣 I eventually get to making noise once I start getting turned on.

I recently got on birth control and i noticed my drive go down sooo bad. Do you ladies recommend anything that can help with low libido?

How and why and what the helly 😭 I can’t catch a break idk what to do because we paid for the procedure out of pocket w/o insurance I am about to harass that office until they redo it