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Gush of blood story | *GRAPHIC*

So I thought I’d post this in case there is anyone else who goes through the same thing or worries about this kind of thing, maybe it’ll give at least a little hope as I was totally mortified and panicking and grieving for 2 days over the loss of my twins when they were actually okay.

I had light bleeding for a couple of days, this was pink blood mostly only when I wiped, so I was brought in for a scan on Saturday. They told me I was pregnant with twins and both had a heart beat and I was sooo happy.
Last night only a day later I felt the need to go to the toilet, and as I sat down I literally had an entire gush of blood and clots come out of me, I instantly started crying and shaking thinking everything was gone and over. I called my partner and he saw how much there was and called 111. He was terrified too, but genuinely kept as hopeful as he could throughout the whole thing whilst I was sobbing that I’d lost them and ‘I knew I’d lose them.’
I went back to the toilet and I was bleeding more and then what honestly what felt like something just drop out of me.
I called my mum and she begged me to go to the hospital as I have twins then one night still be okay and I genuinely said to her ‘what’s the point, they’re gone’ because I was so upset.
My partner did convince me and we went to A&E, I was still bleeding but it had gone very light. I thought the reason I was only lightly bleeding was because I’d just had a complete miscarriage and it was over and there was nothing left. I thought that within 10 minutes I’d lost everything and that was it. The hospital referred me back to the early pregnancy unit again but I had to wait for them to call me the day after.
I spent all night crying; not sleeping and mourning the loss of these two babies I’d only just seen with heartbeats on a scan a day earlier.
I woke up in the morning and continued crying, I couldn’t cope, so admittedly with impatience I called the early pregnancy unit instead of waiting on a callback. They booked me into a doctors appointment for later in the day, I cried on the way there, cried there, and then the doctor called me in after waiting 2 hours.
She told me the fact that the bleeding has slowed down and not continued is actually a really good thing, and that they already know there were heartbeats makes the chances of having a miscarriage really low. She said it should be a 95% chance of success rate. I cried and said I’d be the 5%, my partner believed it would be okay and I just had no hope. I said ‘she didn’t see how much blood there was, she wasn’t there’. She told me she will refer me for a scan, so I waited another hour for a scan.. a scan I was sooo ready to be told they were gone.
To my absolute surprise, there were two heart beats, both of them are okay and have even grown in size. The bleeding was due to a Subchorionic Hematoma, the pooling of the blood.
I genuinely cried with happiness and was so surprised and my partner was super happy too, my mum also completely relieved.
I’m still so so so surprised that they are okay, that I could lose so much and keep them. I feel completely and utterly blessed, I really do. I know I could be very lucky, I’m not saying this will happen for everyone but just with the chance this might give someone a little hope if they’re in the same situation then here you go!
Even if it’s just a read for you or anything 🤍