Alone.

My significant other makes me feel so alone and unnoticed. He thinks he’s trying but he’s not. He thinks the bare minimum is trying. When he’s not at work he is home decompressing to go back to work, which basically looks like him in his phone or watching tv after saying hi to the kids and asking how their day was. He thinks spending 30mins-2 hours with the kids is parenting. He wants to be acknowledged for keeping our 4 month old baby at night a couple of times a week, when that’s what he is supposed to do. I understand that he’s tired from work, but so am I. Granted I do stay home at the moment, but we don’t have a mortgage or rent payment, I pay for the gas with my savings, I pay for my car payment, and I pay for the things that I want and need… including things for the house. He only pays my phone bill and my car insurance. Basically what I’m getting at is that he does not take care of me, but I find myself feeling like a maid at times. I want this to work, but quite honestly I could do this on my own. I dont want to, but if I feel so alone why not actually just be by myself? I don’t feel like myself and I am so misunderstood. I don’t ask for much, I just want to be heard. We’ve been stuck in this state since I was about 4 months pregnant. I want him to be present in the kids lives, but physically being there and actually being there are two completely different things. I just need some non-biased advice. Maybe I’m not seeing his side. I don’t know anymore.