Part of me thinks it’s best I move on too but I miss having that friend that knows me who I could’ve spoken to about anything. I’ve been struggling to make friends ever since. It kind of feels like a breakup in a way 😅
It's absolutely a breakup and can hurt more than breaking up with a romantic partner. It sucks, it's sad and it's something you actually have to mourn
I think you should try to reach out. I did (eventually) and we actually talk now. Not regularly but every so often one of us will message and see how the others doing and stuff. I hadn’t seen her in about 10 years and I randomly messaged asking if she wanted to go on a night out and she said yeah 🤷♀️ now she’ll message asking how me and baby are and stuff
Honestly, I was in a similar same boat. My "bff" ghosted me and I haven't seen her since my wedding 5 years ago. Only you know what is best for you and your child, but I would suggest moving on. If she's supposed to be in your life, the universe will guide her back to you.