Confidence!

I have absolutely no confidence in myself. I'm a firm believer, things like that are taught to you at home. It starts young. But what do you do when most of your younger years 8-14 being told you're too black or ugly or I'll never amount to anything but on the other hand my younger sisters got praised for any & everything they did. Whether it was right or wrong. It was like nothing I did was good enough. For a long time I used to want my mother to love me the way she loved her other kids but she never did. Now that everybody is grown and living their own lives. I still have this I'll never be enough feelings. I hate that I have no confidence in myself.