How many times a day do you think “I wanna die”?

I am not planning on killing myself. I don’t even really think l want to die. Like the thought of leaving my kids sounds unbearable and I would never do that.

I just find myself thinking that phrase a lot. And yes I’m in therapy and on medication. Just curious if anyone has dealt with this?

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Hey babes, just want to let you know that God loves you, give Jesus christ a chance❤️, I know it might not be what you want to hear right now but speak to him, tell him your thoughts and ask him for strength he will come through for you, If you don’t know what to say just shout lord Jesus help me. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved, Romans 10:13 and Mathew 11:28, he tells you to come to him when you tired. Be blessed

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Just adding my bit of secular support in case the above comment makes no sense to you. ❤️ I have many days when I feel I’m only here for my daughter. I’ve yet to find the right solution for myself, personally. Sorry you’re going through it, too. Maybe you need a good friend?

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Don’t think you’re alone in this.
I say this more joking I guess like when things get tough I just think omg I can’t do this anymore.
But I don’t truly want to die, death sounds so scary and leaving my kids sounds like such a crappy life for them.

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I’ve been suicidal for 10 years after years of have misdiagnosis’s, prescriptions of meds shoved down my throat, and going through so much trauma from “recovery” centers and groups, and hopping to new therapists year after year or sometimes months after months so much that my suicidal thoughts and tendencies are now numb and passive. Death terrifies me. I had 4 failed attempts in my teenage years (14,16,18,&20) cause I was too afraid of what would happen in the afterlife. And now having a 4 month old daughter…. I don’t think I could ever. I still think about it but acting on it… makes me wanna vomit. No one I’d trust would raise her….

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thank you! Nice to know I’m not alone

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yeah sometimes I feel like I’m saying it as a joke? But most the time I’m just saying it in my head so idk.

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I think that’s normal. I say it in my head more often than from my mouth. I don’t want people to think I’m suicidal it’s just my way of saying “I don’t know how I can keep handling this”

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Yes I feel this all the time I feel stuck and no matter what I do I’m unhappy I’m the problem I have no friends and I have trust issues with my bf and I do everything for my kids but I feel like because I’m sad too they don’t get the 100%mom it’s sad I feel drained I’m Drowning I just got fired today too

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Everyday(in my head mostly but out loud somewhat regularly) for 21months while breastfeeding. Since I stopped breastfeeding only occasionally! I think I had D-MER and went undiagnosed. Everyday now I just think “this has to be the longest day of my life” instead which is much better! 🤣 sending hugs 🫂

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Glad you’re in therapy and working on things! Suicidal ideation is not fun at all. I used to have it very often, especially in the peak of my personality disorder. Once I hit late 20s and went on a mood stabilizing medication I now rarely have it. I hope that you can also get to that point as the thoughts can be very scary even if you have no intention on following through or doing anything 💕

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I’ve had similar repeating thoughts during my darker periods but my brain kept saying “I don’t want to live..” it scared me how often the thought came up so I started consciously adding “..like this.” to the end of the sentence whenever the thought popped in my head. Saying “I don’t want to live..like this.” slowly started making me feel like I could make a difference in my own life and in a weird way gave me hope. Maybe you can find a similar way to help shift your perspective. Sounds like you are putting in the work now. Things have gotten better for me. It is possible!

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I have those moments… for me it’s related to my autism… a lot of autistic folk like myself deal with suicide idealization… 🙃

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