Having a mental breakdown
My kids love chicken nuggets for lunch, im sure this is my fault because I dont like to spend my entire day cooking meals but thats beside the point. The great value dino nugget recall has me sick to my stomach terrified. I already have a fear of food and getting sick from food, then come to find out something weve all been eating was tested for potential super high lead levels freaks me out beyond belief. Not only for my kids but for myself too. I might be crazy but ive already called poison control, called their pediatrician, and scheduled a lead test blood draw for myself.
I feel like such a shit parent. I just want the best for my kids but I feel like im failing them in so many ways right now. I wish we could afford to get the best most healthiest organic food for them and I wish I had the time/energy to make them all their food scratch so I know what theyre taking in is good for them. With the prices of literally everything raising, how are we supposed to do this?
My entire body aches today from either a virus or a autoimmune flare up and then to find this out just has me feeling like shit in every way. I hate all of this.
Is this normal parent child bonding to you?
Overheard my husband and his brother discussing their next trip to forbidden planet… and he tells him he plans on bringing our 1 year old along. Now I don’t know a whole lot about it but from what he’s explained before it’s a fiction/ fantasy comic/ book/ toy store. He’s always said it’s packed and he is in there for ages. Not sure why they’d think that’s a fun thing for a 1 year old to be dragged to, as well as the fact that our child has never been exposed to any cartoons, screens, fiction books etc and won’t be any time soon. She would have no clue what she’s doing there and will get bored quick.
I’ve spoken to him before about pushing his interests onto our children, understandable when it’s sharing a toy or short book or pictures that seems normal, however I’ve had to address him in the past regarding purchasing silly items to only take a quick picture or video of child with it and share it with his family making out that our child is interested in or even sometimes obsessed with them just because she’s holding them and looking at it (what kid wouldn’t 🙄). He’s been doing this kinda thing since she was a baby, she’ll crawl and he’d record her crawling to one of his toys and plaster it on his family group about how much she likes the toy now… as if she had a choice in the matter when it’s purposely put in front of her while all other toys removed, y know? I know he thinks I’m being extra but I’m an educator, I value teaching children and babies to explore appropriately, fostering their interests and following their lead. I feel my husband just wants her to be dragged into such places or ideas so he can be performative, and from my observation he only bonds with his siblings over avengers, Pokémon etc etc because they were glued to the TV and YouTube as kids and still are. I feel strongly about exposing her to these things at such an early age but I don’t think he understands. I totally get wanting to share your interests with your child but I mean just because I love makeup, I’m not about to show my child tutorials and get her a kit. I want him to notice what she loves doing, and work with that. Not just what brings him pleasure. His style does not feel natural or appropriate to me.
