I don’t like my baby today

It does kinda sound like maybe its PPD (post partum depression) if it doesn't get better I suggest maybe seeing a doctor. I hope it doe get easier for you!

Soloparenting two little ones is so incredibly hard
It will eventually get better, as you’ll get more of a hang of it, so please don’t be hard on yourself
For me the best thing was to let go of things that need to happen. Putting baby to nap/ sleep meant screen time for my toddler, simply because it was the only way I managed it. Or we all took a family nap
And after you had some rest as well, everything will look a little easier

Hugs Mama ✨ 🥹

I think you might have ppd and you are extremely over whelmed
I only have one and the only thing I felt ( back then) was I'm drowning and what the fk did I do
I had ppd .it was a dark very lonley place
Im a single mum ,with not a lot of help

When your husban isn't around do you have anyone who can help out ...
Or take them on a outing for an hour I.e the park...
Stay strong 💪

Really not understanding why people are saying it sounds like you have PPD based on this post. I only have one kid, but man they’re tough and I think it’s normal to feel frustrated and like you don’t like your kid sometimes. I really want another kid, but have concerns that my kid would feel sad with so much attention going in a new baby, I know that’s normal, but it’s still heartbreaking, so I get why you’d feel the way you do.

I agree, just because of what you're describing doesn't mean you have PPD!
My kids are 15 months apart. It's all hard. I didn't bond with my daughter immediately (she's younger just like yours). She wouldn't sleep at night AT ALL for months. I didn't like her much during that time. I think that's just human nature. She actively upended our entire lives when she was born. No matter how much you are logically prepared for it. The exhaustion, hormone rollercoaster, and the extra pressure of having 2 babies to look after - now by yourself for an extended period is SO MUCH. Please give yourself some grace. Things do get easier as you learn little things that help.
Baby wearing can help, but isn't for everyone. My daughter spent a lot of time in a portable rocking "cradle" while I looked after my son's needs while I was home alone all day.

If you have anyone else you can count on to come and help while you're husband is away for longer periods, please reach out to them for help. Family, friends, other military wives... Anyone who can come and give you a sanity break, even for a few hours, would be huge. And if you happen to be lucky enough to get some time when they are both asleep at the same time, please use that time for self care. The dishes, the laundry, the cooking, they will all still be there after you've had a chance to shower, nap, read, watch a bit of TV, whatever you think will fill your cup so that you can get through their next awake period.
Big hugs 🫂