False positive?
I did a pregnancy test on my lunch today and got the result in the photos, I wasn’t 100% sure it was genuine, I drove home telling myself not to get excited, got home and did another and it was stark negative. The line in the photo is pretty faint which made sense for how many DPO I am. I don’t understand how I got the test in the photos?! My wee this evening was super diluted and I’m only about 9DPO possibly 8 so I’m not out yet but I just felt like everything added up. I’ve had such a headache today, boobs hurt, I’ve felt a bit like off, a bit sicky just not 100%. I’m so cross with myself for getting my hopes up and so p*ssed off that I could get what seems like a positive result and then a negative a few hours later 😭😭😭😭
Colourism
So I am Canadian-Jamaican and it’s such a spicy topic regarding skin colour. I have always considered myself black as both parents are from Jamaica. Externally, my dad would be considered “mixed” which stems from slavery. His family goes 2 generations back of mixed heritage. My mom is the descendant of Maroons that escaped to the mountains of Jamaica. When people ask what are you mixed with? I give them the spunky response with, “my mom and my dad.” Or when I tell them both parents are Jamaican they insist I give them more of a response.
Now that I have my daughter I already knew I had no control what DNA did in terms of skin colour. My fiancé is a dark skinned man from Antigua. When our daughter was born, she came out lighter than me. She is now 6months and basically is my twin except for when she frowns, that is all her father.
Now my mom has her “light skinned preference “ and has made comments on me dating a dark skinned man and she has also made comments about my daughter and her “good hair” and “nice skin.” Even my own dad has also chimed in on the skin colour of my daughter.
As a kid I struggled with identity and my blackness in schools that were predominantly East Asian. The very few black students in my school never wanted to be my friend because of how “light” I was.
I know times are different for some kids, but I wonder if any other moms out there struggle with colourism within your family or in the public?