Rant
I just need a bit of a rant about how I’m feeling and to see if anyone else has gone through something similar 🤷🏼♀️
So I think I might have PPD… I’ve already spoken to my health visitor, but she thinks it’s just anxiety (she’s… an interesting person).
Anyway, my little one is nearly 8 weeks old. She’s a very fussy baby and still only sleeps on us, so we’re doing shifts through the night.
I feel so angry all the time and get annoyed so easily. Then I feel guilty because I don’t want my baby to only see me like this. Everything irritates me, even my husband, which makes me really sad because I adore him and love him so much… but lately he just gets on my nerves.
I also feel completely stuck on the sofa all day. I’m either in my pyjamas or I change into a tracksuit, and I just feel so unattractive at the moment. My hair, my skin… I feel like I look like a mess. All my clothes feel ugly too — mostly maternity or baggy stuff.
On top of that, I feel like my house is constantly a mess. I just want it to be clean, organised, and smell nice 😫
We don’t have anyone around as our parents and relatives live in other countries, and I also have to deal with a difficult mother-in-law and a jealous sister-in-law.
I love my daughter so much — I cant teel how much she means to me, and I’m sure you all know that feeling. But I’m just so overwhelmed and angry, and sometimes I feel like I hate everyone and don’t want anyone around