Motherhood
I absolutely fucking hate it that’s good some people actually enjoy this but me no I wish I would have aborted her and this other child yes this child hasn’t done anything since it’s not here yet but fuck this shit and I know when this child do get here having 2 under 2 will be worse but I can’t take the constant crying sometimes I just want to end my life and that thought gotten worse ever since being a mother I hate it I swear I’m so close to doing adoption and I honestly won’t even give a fuck who think I’m a bad mother or person for doing it it’s fucking up my mental and I’m over the responsibility of kids plus they daddy has hella shit to say when she’s crying but won’t come take care of his child he helped create
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Serious question: are u bipolar 1 or 2 at all or possibly dealing with ppd by chance? I totally get not loving every aspect of parenting btw. I hope this feeling passes for you...
First of all, I am so sorry that you’re not doing ok and feel a lack of support in this moment. I am so sorry your mental health is declining and you can’t seem to catch a break. There’s nothing harder than motherhood. The change. The challenge. Everything. Especially with 2 under 2. I wish I could wrap my arms around you and give you a break. If you can please get someone to watch the kids for a bit and take a moment to breath, maybe even grieve who you were before all this, but also think about what is the best next step. No one is judging you. You made it this far which tells me you tried to be the best mother you can 💜. You are loved. You are not alone. Whatever decision you make is the best you can. Praying for peace upon you. Please, give yourself grace. You’re amazing no matter what.
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