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January 2021 Babies 🇬🇧

I’m sick to death of my 5yo and I hate myself for it

I feel like an awful parent but everything she does winds me up.

She doesn’t listen, she argues all the time, she isn’t careful, she cries and throws a fit at the drop of a hat, she’s a complete wimp.

If she has the tiniest bump she’ll scream like she needs an ambulance and I try washing her hair with the shower head and she freaks out like I’m trying to drown her.

She repeats herself over and over and it’s usually stupid things like saying ‘oh poopoo head’ or ‘flickin chicken’ in a stupid voice constantly and it’s SO annoying.

Sometimes I really struggle to be around her or show her affection because she annoys me so much and it’s awful because I don’t feel this triggered by her 3yo brother at all.

And she’s not even a bad kid. She excels in school, she’s affectionate with her brother, she’s polite and kind and generous with other people. She’s just a dick to me and her dad.

We used to be so close and I want to feel that again instead of being constantly annoyed by her. I hate that she could be picking up on it because she deserves so much better than what I’m giving her at the moment.

I’ve tried spending one on one time with her but everything is a constant battle and I feel like I’m arguing with a teenager, not a 5yo.

I’m just the worst parent.