TW: pregnancy after recurring loss
This is my 4th pregnancy and will be my first baby on the earth side. I’m currently 20+5 weeks, previously had 2 first trimester miscarriages and 1 TFMR on the second, and honestly I’m constantly scared that something will go wrong again!
I kept telling myself that after heartbeat I’d be fine, then the 12 weeks scan, 16 weeks, 20 anomaly scan… all came back normal but I cannot chill.
I do allow myself to buy little clothes and we’ve just got our pram, but I keep checking return policies just in case. I overthink even baby’s movement if they feel too strong on the “wrong” place; keep checking preterm survival stats because what if my body fail me again and he’s born early…
For mums with similar journey, does it ever go away? Was that while you were pregnant or when your baby is born?
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Similar situation, I had two first trimester miscarriages and sitting here now with my 7 week old little girl. It never got easier for me, I was anxious day in and day out during my pregnancy felt like I was never actually going to meet my baby. Every milestone in my pregnancy I thought she’s fine now but I still kept worrying. It gets easier throughout the pregnancy but it then turned in to reduced movements but I’m pretty sure I convinced myself I had reduced movements. When she was born it felt unreal she actually was here I was worried about her heartbeat for the first two weeks but no the anxiety has eased a lot I still have it but it’s definitely eased. It’s so tough pregnancy after multiple miscarriages
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