Feelings

My waters broke at 22wks and i managed to keep my son till 24wks , As I caught an infection so I had to induced .

Let me tell you I didn't feel guilt and i know I DIDN'T DO nothing wrong and neither did you or your fellow sisters etc , sometimes life throws us curveball and this is a big one.

My son was born 24wks weigh 690g.... he's now 4yrs old a big brother and he is a SEND child but he is the most adorable little person I know, he is non-verbal but we kinda make our communication together ❤️

When my waters broke... I told myseld I can't control this, it's out of my hands, all I could do was pump my milk , support him and watch him thrive. 💜💜

I had my son at 28 weeks, I was diagnosed with preeclampsia at 27w.

I had multiple doctors tell me it wasn't my fault or that it wasn't anything I did to cause it, I was admitted to hospital at 27 weeks and they said I would be there until baby is born but also they wouldn't let me go past 31 weeks.

I ended up having a placental abruption so things got moving quite quickly.

I'm at peace with it now but at the time I felt massive guilt, I thought of all the "what ifs" imaginable, and even when doctors said it wasn't my fault I just didn't believe them. ESPECIALLY the morning he was born as I played down something I was feeling as I didn't want to be a nuisance as I knew the midwives were busy and short staffed but with hind sight that was the beginning of my placenta abrupting, but also I didn't know the warning signs of that so I need to remember to be kind to myself as at the end of the day both me and baby are okay 🤞🏼