Am I a terrible person?

I've been reading through some archived messages on fb from groups ive been in in the past, some going back a decade or so.
A lot of them include arguments, ones where I'm called homophobic (I'm bisexual and use the same jokes that many in the community do), ones where I'm called racist (i grew up in an extremely racist family to the poont i used to hold my breath around people who weren't whote and british. I have since changed completely and now fight my family over their views) ones where I'm told I'm argumentative, ones where I'm called a spoiled brat, ones where I'm called a liar.
I've started to notice that people just hate me in general for who I am.

Am I truly just a terrible person?

As a side note, I was diagnosed autistic at 25 years old. They didn't need to speak to anyone else because it was obvious from just me that I was autistic.
I've also had mental health issues all my life from bullying and terrible genetics which potentially contributes to me being a dick.

I do try and be a nice person but sometimes I do one thing wrong and people go off on me or I'll copy what others do and people will go off on me but not the person that did it first 🙃

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No one is liked by everyone. And social media interactions leave more room for people to be less than pleasant with each other.

I would try to spend less time masking or “copying what others do” because it sounds like you’re highly impacted by your environment and trying to fit in, as a lot of neurodivergent people are. Sometimes the whiplash of being raised in a conservative bigoted way and then evolving out of it can leave you questioning your identity and values, I’d just try to spend more time observing and soaking in multiculturalism where I can and trying to surround myself with open minded, truly kind people because in turn that will make you more open minded and kind, and the criticism you receive from people you respect can be taken more seriously

This isn’t me being judgemental or mean I’d like to start off with that,

I do not know you, I’m just going off what was written in this post
are. I doubt you are presently a terrible person if you having such a moment of introspection now.

You were likely called some of those things because of whatever you might’ve said back when you were called those things. But maybe not everytime (lol FB is full of nonsense & people who struggle with reading comprehension)

Like autumn said it sounds like you spent a lot of life absorbing the people who you grew up raised by’s views, which is not uncommon for any human being. But people are more than capable of change.
Humans are ever evolving, and adapting while they gain independent life experience.

It sounds like you do know who you are to some extent, but you’re not letting yourself figure it out, because you want to be liked by others more than you do trust that you know yourself.

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Do you get slightly annoyed when comments go completely off topic to what was asked? Examples below

Some examples from things I posted or saw:
1. I posted a while ago asking if anyone gave birth alone (by choice) so that their child was safe at home with the other parent. Immediately people were like "I wouldn't give birth alone" "you need someone there" or the icing on the cake was someone commenting "your husband shouldn't let you do it alone"...like it's my choice he's not "letting me" in any way 🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️ just none of those comments are what I asked, when I said specifically those who HAVE

2. Someone states they aren't doing nursery (and are not changing their mind) then people comment how it's needed for this and that or how great it is... Again not what was asked

3. Someone having a tough relationship and someone posts that their partner is great and how they didn't experience this or that, when it wasn't asked

4. Someone asking about a C-section and advice on them and people coming on and saying "it's a major surgery I wouldn't" or "you should try vaginal" when they CLEARLY stated that they ARE getting a C-Section

I just find it slightly annoying as in I shake my head because I find some people can't read the room

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Does anyone have a set routine for their babies yet? With my first I know we were on a 4 hour loop from 8am-8pm but my second just seems so unpredictable.

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LO has been potty trained in the day since 23 months. About a month after being potty trained in the day so 24 months she started to wake up dry in the mornings more nights than not. This went on for a while. Then she started to wake up saying she needed a wee around 1 night a week and dry the other days. I’d go in and say it’s fine you have a nappy on and most of the time she go for a wee in it, sometimes she’d refuse and say potty. I now realise I shouldn’t have said it’s fine you have a nappy as thats her telling me she’s ready and a good thing. The last month she has been waking up more and more saying she needs a wee and won’t use her nappy at night atall which I know is amazing but she used to go most nights 11-12 hours completely dry where as now she’s waking up once every night needing a wee and I don’t get why she suddenly can’t hold it? The only thing that’s change is she’s probably drinking more in the day due to the heat this last month. Has anyone else had this? Could it simply be because she’s drinking more? I wouldn’t say it’s loads more. Is it normal to wake up more during the night the older she gets? Is it just because she’s becoming more aware? It was nearly every single night she’d wake up dry before. Im going to try and limit water intake before bed as I do let her have a drink when having a story but I feel mean due to it being hot. I know I should be happy she’s done this by herself so quickly and I am but she’s always been such a good sleeper 11-12 hours and I am not used to wake ups. She does go back to sleep straight away which is amazing but I can’t! It’s once a night so I’m not I’m not worried about uti. I’m just really confused how she’s gone from holding it all night to not being able to and it’s driving me insane not knowing what’s changed.

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I need to know I’m not the only one. Has anyone else, during postpartum, felt like they suddenly couldn’t stand their partner? Everything they do annoys you, conversations go nowhere, and you honestly start wondering if being a single parent would be less stressful. Is this a postpartum thing, or has anyone else felt this way?