Having my daughter made me hate my career
I am 2 months postpartum (10 weeks) and I return to work tomorrow. My daughter is the sweetest baby girl, she is so easy to care for, breastfeeding has been a breeze, she barely cries, sleeps well, and smiles and giggles soooo much! I love spending time with her throughout the day but being a SAHM isn’t in the cards for me/realistic. Before her, I loved my career in ABA working with children on the spectrum. I’m a year away from finishing my program working towards my BCBA. It was my passion, and I loved it. I was great at it. But the idea of leaving my daughter brings me to so many tears and emotionally I cannot handle it. Prior to starting work I went places alone for a few hours (appointments; hair, nails, etc…) and I legit was itching to get back home to her. I have a lot of mom guilt about being away and missing things with her. I’m crying typing this just thinking about it. I know I have to go back to provide her a better life but I just wanted to know I’m not alone in that, and if resenting work/my career is normal in this stage.