Can i ask a question without judgement

Sometimes, it might be bad but I still talk to mine we were horrible when we were together but now we are in a really good place and are able to talk about our shared interests and not be so toxic to each other.

Uhhh no I mean it took my some time to get over my first love but I was single while doing so.
Maybe talk to a therapist about it to get whatever it is off your chest

I would look at what your subconscious is thinking a lot of, sometimes we need the space to revisit the past to appreciate what we have more in the present or to reflect on what’s missing that you had once before (not saying the person itself)

i feel like the first love is impactful but you mature from it and the current love you chose is suited for who you are now and the future you’re working towards.