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Mamas with depression, anxiety, and other mental health disorders

What would you do?

I have been working on my mental health heavily these past few years (therapy, TMS, Ketamine, various antidepressants, etc) and the one thing that keeps me depressed is the way my husband treats me, or lack thereof. I feel like a ghost in my own home and have never felt so alone while being with someone. Thank goodness for my kids, but it all comes to how I dont get support or empathy from my husband. We rarely even speak anymore. I'm too scared to talk anymore because if I say anything, he just shuts down and won't talk to me. God knows I've tried speaking to him in so many different ways, different wording, different ways to bring up the topic, etc. Ive tried couples therapy, Ive tried encouraging him to go to therapy for himself, but he refuses to see that his actions are hurting me or our marriage. He's probably happy I dont bring anything up anymore because I'm so defeated, but I know that isn't the answer because it wears me down so much. I am struggling so much and I know things need to change, but if trying to talk to him about how his actions hurts leads to me being given the silent treatment, I don't know what to do other than to leave. What would you do if the lack of anything from your partner has such a detrimental hit to your mental health? I'm leaning more and more to divorce, but I can't afford it.... sorry for the rambling, I just dont know what to do.