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SAHM/WAHM

Feeling overwhelmed lonely and stressed.

I just want to hide under a rock or disappear. Ive never felt so unhappy in my life. Yes. Ive had times where I was down. But never like this i have 3 kids in my household and everyday one of them find a way to make me feel like shit. I do everything for everybody in this house. I clean up behind them. I do all the chores all i ask is that they keep their rooms cleans and bring out all the cups. Some nights I go to bed crying because I feel unseen or unheard. I love my little family but I dont think they love me back.
My oldest is on the spectrum hes high functioning but this shit is still hard. No amount of talking expressing or showing is getting thru to this kid. Hes so aggressive and rude but when u show him the same in return its an problem. (his siblings) some days I wake up and dont want to be bother but I still get up and handle things. I just wish they could see I show up for them even when I cant show up for myself.