Narcissist survivors

I’m in the process of leaving my husband and we have a 3.5 yr old daughter together. We both have hurt each other, no affairs or anything, but it’s toxic. He is narcissistic (just calling it like I see it and like I’ve been reading for weeks and weeks everywhere) long story short. After 4 yrs I’m tired of feeling like I’m the fault. I have no family or friends here. Or anywhere for that matter. I am extremely at an all time low and what I really am hoping to find to help is some friends. Conversations. Ppl local that want to meet up with the kids and such. I have pending charges against me so unable to work until February so trying to figure everything out right now. I’ve been on this app for so many years and still can’t make connections. However, I’m at a point in my life, 39 years old, and really hoping to meet and make some lasting friendships as I try to navigate this part of my life.

Do y'all have a hard time trusting...Like ANYONE. The 🤬 I went through with my ex has left me super paranoid. For me it's to the point of not moving past the 💩. I hate it here!

Not sure how to feel but Friday night I was accused of being in love with someone called "Sarah" I put this in brackets aa I ain't entirely sure this ever happened I was asleep and apparently I said no I don't love you I love Sarah now I have no recollection of any of this happening all I know is I was woken up with an angry voice saying to me who the fuck is Sarah and that I love her so who the fuck is Sarah now to me I was shocked and confused and the whole situation and I even replied I don't even know a Sarah I was then told that I can go and fuck myself I am a horrible bitch and I can go the fuck away I've tried explaining that I am in no way in love with someone called Sarah and that I am really confused I've offered to hand over my phone's iPads etc etc there is no Sarah. I was and I do know this singing the Sarah and duck theme tune in my head and sometimes quotes from the show pop in to my head up be honest I ain't going to go and grovel for forgiveness for something that I haven't done all I know is the words that was shouted at me the go fuck myself horrible bitch and go the fuck away is haunting me this is not the sort of behaviour I expect from my partner of 10 years.

I am recently separated form my husband. He left and I know that's a good thing.i was told he is a narcissist. I also believe he may be bipolar. Proble. Us he dosent want to stay gone he blows my fone up daily. He says his problems are not his fault. Since bipolar us a medical condition. Apart I'm not sposed to hold his actions against him. I'm sposed to support him cus he supported me when my daughter had cancer. My phone went off this morning and he said he was coming over if I didn't answer. So I went to work 2 hrs early just in case. I don't know what I need to do. I know I need to find housing I can afford asap. And I know I need legal assistance. I also know I need couseling/ therapy and support groups. But I don't know where to start. I know I left out many details . I have no freinds near by . No family. . I'm a scared mess

Hey y'all I'm new here. Left my narcissist ex November 2021. Still waiting on my divorce to be final.