Hey everyone,
Im 5months postpartum and having deep thoughts about my future as a mum and partner.
I love my son so much. And ive always wanted a few kids, not just the one. But my birth experience wasn't the most favourable. I ended up having an emergency C-section about 17 hours after I realistically should have. Due to that I had infections somewhere (I wasn't even told where) and my family were advised with no information not to leave the hospital when I came out of theater but they wernt allowed to see me.
Since then I was adamant of not wanting any more. But recently ive been thinking about it.
The panick attacks ive had from my own thoughts on the situation are getting tiresome.
Has anyone else been like this? Where the want for more kids is there but the fear of what could possibly happen is overwhelming?
The stress from it all has been affecting my partner but hes trying his best to keep everything happy.