Narcissistic Abuse Recovery

My divorce has finally been finalised and our joint house has finally been sold after nearly 2 horrid years of abuse. It feels bittersweet as I’m happy to be free but also mourning what my marriage wasn’t. Now everything is done I keep expecting to see a message apologising for all he put me through, as a wife and the mother of his children. I know this is a bit silly especially knowing he is a narcissist and sorry isn’t going take away the pain but I still feel like I need it. He has run away from the responsibility of his young children because I ended the marriage due to intentional infidelities. I know he’s punishing me but surely it will hit him eventually that he messed up??

So after being with my Narc for 27 years, (married 25) I finally got the courage and had him removed from our home. There is ALOT of backstory to us but, I was with him from age 22-49. I have so much trauma to heal from but I have a lot of support from our kids. All grown now, 2 still living at home… they’re my biggest supporters. I never thought I would get out, but I did….starting down the long road to divorce. He of course is bucking every step of the way. But at least my house is calm and I can relax and figure out who I am again. You can do it ladies, I did. ❤️

Then he disappeared, I haven’t heard from Him since my 5th week of pregnancy. He blocked me on everything, and I have no idea how to contact him or why.

Has this happened to anyone else? And what was the outcome?!

So hurtful

He just kept saying he doesn't see how I love him and why are we together...I got so mad I said then do what you say you are gonna do and unblock and add your ex like you keep threatening...and he did and said we are over and just left the house 🥺 idk why I say these things self esteem maybe...

How do we decide when to stay or when to leave?