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Moms and Moms-to-Be fighting EDs

I have to eat to avoid nausea…

I’ve struggled with my view of food and giving my body nutrients my whole life. Prior to getting pregnant though, I was in a pretty good place. I was eating what I wanted, when I wanted, working out regularly, and having minimal days of self hatred. I wasn’t nutrient conscious by any stretch of the imagination, but I also wasn’t eating terribly. A filling breakfast, a protein shake with fruit at lunch, and kind of whatever for dinner. I didn’t count calories, macros, or anything else because that would bring on obsessive thoughts.

Unfortunately, at 7 weeks pregnant (I’m at 9 now), I started getting nauseous, but the only solution I found is to eat VERY often. But also, I can’t eat as much in one meal as I used to be able to. So my entire day has been restructured around eating constantly (or that’s what it feels like at least). I’ve had to switch from ~3 meals a day to 6-8 small meals. And, I’ve had to be more conscious about what I’m eating because if I don’t get enough protein in each meal, I’m having to eat even more often. Understandably (I think), this has made my relationship with food to become very negative again. I hate that I have to be thinking about what I’m eating again, because it’s bringing back my urge to obsess about the number of calories/etc, and restrict my intake.

I guess I’m just looking for some emotional support and hope that this might get better.