Trauma vent ahead
Honestly just need to vent..
I had my second girl almost 2 months ago via emergency c-section. Now it wasn’t life or death emergency but emergency in my situation. I chose to be induced at 39w2d, the epidural failed and I was only at 6cm. I was in immense pain, sobbing with every contraction. I honestly think she was stuck in my pelvis. I had a choice of either redoing the epidural, laboring to dilate more for 10-12 hours or have the surgery. Doctors were also worried about baby’s HR. I chose the surgery. It wasn’t ideal. All I can think of is staring at the ceiling tiles, waiting for my husband to be at my head, being extremely nauseous and feeling all the tugging and pulling. Now to today, I love watching medical dramas, but I just get and feel so triggered watching them now. It takes me back to the surgery and I can’t escape it. I hate it and idk what to do 😩😭
Ok vent over, thanks for reading if you did 🫶🏻