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you ever wish you were one of those people that just didn’t care. i feel like i care too much at times and always end up hurt

everyday

It really does hurt, I had a person in my life that I thought she was my best friend. She was in half my son’s first year of life and all of a sudden she just hurt me so badly it spiraled me into depression. I wish I knew what I done wrong all I did was want to know why she wouldn’t update me or talk to me since the last time we hung out.

exactly this. I tell myself all the time I will stop caring because of the people that don’t care. Yet in the end I always rack my brain with oh maybe they will care and things will turn out better in the end. Not once has that happened.

it’s hard to process we women are programmed as mothers to feel.

yeah, I’ve tried to shove my feelings down because of the way they leave me feeling after like rejection or something that is negative. It’s better to feel though because I remembered I was so depressed before I graduated high-school I dissociated and it got to the point that I was a mean person. I’m glad I’m not like that anymore because of my family I have, just hard to accept being hurt.

I’m glad you’re doing better now :)

thank you 😊