Postpartum depression?

Hey, chat to your midwife or get a gp appointment. It could totally be the baby blues, you're only three weeks in, or it could be sighs of something else. Being open about exactly how you're feeling is the first step.
I've been put on anti-depressants in the last couple of weeks and it's a really rocky road, but the recovery is well worth it. For me, I have a mental health history so as soon as I had some worrying signs the Midwife suggested getting a prescription and getting on the pills again to help me cope with this initial few months.

Please talk to someone, call the GP.
I had it last time with my twins because I was so tired and had no support. I used to cry, and couldn’t bond with my babies and felt like I was just a woman who gave birth to them but they weren’t actually mine. The worse thing was that I didn’t speak about it worrying I would get judged. I bottled it for years and years.
Sending you big hugs 🫂 you are not alone ♥️

Thank you so much, even in that post I don’t feel like I’ve been completely honest just because I feel ashamed 😢 I know I need to tell someone how I’m feeling but it feels scary incase they’re going to think I’m a bad mum
It feels scary like I don’t even know myself or know my baby
Likes he’s this stranger I’ve just got to keep alive

How do I even start, do I call the gp surgery and say I feel like there’s something wrong?
I have a history of anxiety and I’ve been on medication for it in the past

Thank you again ❤️

Yes ring the GP on Monday morning for a emergency appointment and they will see you right away.

Even if you don't think you're putting it into the right words, telling them exactly what you've shared here will help them understand. I didn't even have to give full details, and if you've got some history then should understand that you know when you're not okay. Sending hugs my dear!