Feeling so isolated

Hi Ladies, Does anyone else feel lonely and isolated? It doesn't help that this is hopefully our rainbow baby after losing our son at 20 weeks gestation last year and also now waiting for a re-scan as measured around 5.5 weeks with yolk sac but no heartbeat when I was expecting to be around 7 weeks. I work from home in a job I've been in for under a year and it's a very stressful, chaotic small company. No close colleagues etc. I've not been seeing many people, and have backed out of a few meals/receptions, drinks etc so I don't have the interrogation of why I'm not drinking (I'm usually the wino of the groups 🤣) I've had a few friends message me lovely quotes and poems etc, as it's a year since we lost the baby and I'm struggling with replies as I just want to talk to people about what's happening, but can't bear to tell anybody be yet. Only my partner knows. It's so lonely and nerve wracking. My anxiety is so high. Anyway. Enough whining from me!! 🤣💗