Hormones & husband watching porn

Currently 8+2 and I feel like my emotions are at an all time peak. For the past couple of days I have cried alot what seemed like for absolutely no reason. I was cooking my lunch yesterday and randomly burst into tears.

I don’t know whether it’s pregnancy and my emotions and the fact I’m clearly very sensitive at the minute but I’m aware my husband watches porn (unsure exactly how much) but I do know the women in the porn videos he watches are women with a completely different body shape to me (large breasts and I am a B cup) and this makes me so self conscious about my own body. I have brought it up to my husband before and I got quite emotional but he stated that all men watch porn and he isn’t doing it because he doesn’t like my body.

This conversation was quite a while ago so I’m not really sure why it’s all coming to my mind again - assuming the hormones.

Not really sure what I’m looking for or why I’m posting in this group. Kind of just wanted to get it off my chest as I understand a lot of men do watch porn and it’s not watching porn I think is the issue it’s the insecurities I have because I feel now my husband isn’t sexually attracted to me as I will never look or have the body type of the women in the videos.🤷🏻‍♀️

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I think it’s easy to let your hormones cloud your rational thinking at that stage! Watching porn is really common in both men and women and it really doesn’t have any implications on whether your husband finds you attractive! You can enjoy watching porn when the people look different to your partner - tbh I kind of think it’s not exactly the exact person / people you’re looking at and getting turned on over, more just the whole act / experience if that makes sense? Like I’ve watched porn before and tbh I can’t even remember what the men in it looked like as I’m not even that focussed on them or their looks, more just the act in general. If the men in the porn didn’t look like my husband, it definitely doesn’t make me any less attracted to my husband! As humans we can appreciate different lots of different appearances. Honestly don’t take it personally, and if you guys aren’t really having sex much at the moment maybe he’s just exploring his sexuality through that x

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Also I just really don’t think porn is problematic unless it becomes an addiction or something. It’s a natural age old human thing to enjoy watching sex! x

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honestly I agree with everything you have said and in one sense that’s exactly what I think so I am logical in that sense but at the same time it’s very hard not to wonder if it’s because of the way I look - I have never been totally confident with my body because of how petite I am so seeing it just exacerbated my feelings seeing the porn that he watches is very much the same body type and that body type is the complete opposite of mine! I do think my hormones are definitely making me a lot more emotional about it recently though

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Aww I totally get it! In all honesty though he probably didn’t even search for a specific body type, it’s probably just the type of woman that happened to be in the porn he was watching. I totally get why it would make you feel conscious when you’re feeling vulnerable already. But try not to take it to heart, I have no doubt your husband loves you and thinks your body is gorgeous, especially now! x

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