I think part of me regrets my daughter and I hate that I feel this way.

I'm 19, got pregnant at 18. My daughter's "Dad" ditched me, and I had her May this year. She's 7 months old, and I've always had this horrible feeling that I partially regret her because I feel trapped. She's the love of my life and my world and I will do anything and everything for her, but also it still doesn't feel like she's mine. It feels more like I'm a babysitter who just happens to be with her 24/7. There's so many things I wanna see and do now, but I can't because I've got her. And I hate that I feel this way so much and I know I'm not the greatest of Mum's, but I don't know what to do. I don't want her to be growing up in front of me and the whole time I'm thinking what I could be doing if I didn't have her so young. It hurts that I feel this way because she truly is the only good thing that's ever come of my life, and it feels like such a beautiful little girl like her is being wasted on me? And I just don't know what to do with this feeling or how to fix it.

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I feel for you. This age is tough. They will grow up and in a few years you will be able to do a lot of fun things with her! You having her young isn't a negative. You'll just be younger and better able to enjoy life with her as she grows!

Right now is the hard stage cuz she can't do anything but when she grows up a little there's a lot of things y'all be able to do together and you get to grow with her get a job so you can get a little time away from her get time to miss her ik it feels like ur trapped cuz ur the only one with her but it will get easy u will learn new things with her u got this keep ur head up high and don't let no one break u down find mom friends around u and have play dates or get them to come over have a glass of wine if u drink if u don't just sit down and talk to them tell them how u feel if they are ur friends thy will be there for u stay strong u got this momma

I came here to say exactly what did, but she put it fat more eloquently than I could!

You're doing a really tough job right now, so try to speak kindly to (and about) yourself.

The disconnection you described feeling can be a symptom of postnatal anxiety or depression, so talking therapy really could help. Have a chat with your GP, they can point you in the right direction.

Sending a hug your way. xx

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