Leaving lil one at family member for a break

( I need to vent cause I’m really sad..) So I just moved in my new apartment from living in a camper. My partner had went to jail 3 months ago and now it’s just always been me and my now 7 month old baby girl. I moved in this apartment last week. I finally got a new living room rug, a damn good mop, 2 house plants that I need to repot and a good book. I just got back to my apartment it’s so…. quiet soon as I walked in I see her walker and high chair. Her toys are on my bedroom floor and it makes me sad. One of her blankets is still on my bed not folded up. I just put my pjs on pulled my hair back to get ready to deep clean my apartment again but it’s like damn…. I really miss my baby… it’s only for one night but damn I need this one night to myself but I almost feel guilty. This is my first time needing a break in 3 1/2 months and it feels so weird and depressing without my baby here.